And thus starts the journey…

I’ve been asked a lot why I am doing the weight loss surgery, what it means, and what I have to do in order to make it work. So, my very first blog post will be about that – and many of my future blog posts will cover the topic of my surgery, post-surgery and life after.  Plus, a few other silly things along the way.

So, the surgery I have decided to get is called a ‘Gastric Bypass,’ which is a big fancy sounding name for ‘bypassing the stomach so he won’t use it anymore.’ The surgery itself is pretty low risk – it is done using 5 1-inch incisions and a robotic tool – but as with any surgeries, there are risks.

I’m not too worried about the risks, honestly. Maybe I should be.  I just don’t think that the risks are any worse than the risks on my body of carrying around an extra CRAPLOAD of weight.

Speaking of which, how much do you think I weigh? Seriously, get a number in your head.  What is it?  Add 40 pounds.  You are probably still too low.

No one believes me, but I weigh 355 pounds (give or take, depending on the amount of bacon I have had that day). Most people say they think I weigh less, which means either A – I carry it well, or B – they are liars.

So what changes for me after surgery? Everything and nothing.

I am already eating (mostly) healthy. I don’t drink soda almost ever, except for the occasional bottle of Mexican Coke (You know, in the glass bottle with the real sugar – not that manufactured crap.)  I don’t eat a lot of chips anymore, and not a lot of sugar.  Mostly, it’s fruit – strawberries and bananas are my favorites.

The one thing that will change – for sure – is an inability to eat sugar. Eating sugar results in something called ‘dumping.’  Yep, as gross as it sounds.  And that could be from either end, if you get my drift.

There are some other changes that may come to my diet, but no one will really know for sure until after the surgery. Some people can’t do dairy anymore.  Some people can’t do bread or rice.  Some people see no real changes (outside of the sugar issue).  I tend to think I am pretty healthy (outside of being fat) and I don’t have any allergies or food issues, so I am hoping that the impact on what I can eat is minimal.  We shall see…

Lastly, why am I doing it?

Of course, there is the fact that I have kids and I would like to see them grow up and for them to get married and have kids of their own. It is also true that if I get the surgery now, it will reduce my risks of developing other issues – diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, etc.  Plus my knees and back don’t really appreciate the extra work it takes to do anything.

But really, the main reason I want the surgery is for me.

The world isn’t made for fat people. Flying in an airplane is a pain in the backside, if not embarrassing (when you have to ask for the extender).  People look at you badly when you are fat – there are immediate judgments about how you must be lazy, unmotivated, and a slob.  And eventually, those opinions from others can wear off on you – and make you feel the same way about yourself.

My self-esteem has taken a beating over the years, not fully due to being overweight, but in part. Ever since I had my thyroid issues, I have gained weight like a fat kid at camp.  And frankly, I think I am a pretty awesome guy – I don’t want to allow my weight to be my defining factor that people think of when they meet me.  “Oh, he seemed like a nice guy..but damn, he was fat.”

And maybe no one thinks of me that way. But it is often how I think about myself.

This doesn’t solve anything, but it does allow me to start over. I can calling this my great ‘Life Reboot.’  I will reset my body back to where it needs to be, and for the second half of my life, I can do things I meant to do before, eat better as I should have before, maybe even start exercising.  I can revise myself as a person on many levels, not just physically, with this surgery.

And – honestly – I can’t wait for the day when people see me after the surgery who hadn’t seen me for a while and see the weight loss and double take. I doubt that will ever get old.

I’m ready for the change. It will take a lot of hard work, but I am ready.

Thanks for following the journey with me…

KDawg

Comments

  1. Angela Cummings

    While I don’t see you as you see yourself, nor do I see you as you think I do. Being I’ve always been your supporter and big fan, you know I will be there for you. Rooting you on and being the same. Any physical for you are, I will always care, always be there. *hugs* thank you for taking the time to share. -Angie

  2. Steven Gardner

    Good luck to you, Kevin. I believe in the surgery for many people. I almost did the surgery a few years back and in the end decided to go another direction, for several reasons. I wish you the best and look forward to seeing the healthier you.

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